Down The Rabbit Hole

When I moved to California in 1999 my cousin Bonnie was pursuing her acting career and attending all of the wild parties at The Playboy Mansion. I was fascinated by her tales of the glitz and glamour, celebrities and over-the-top themed costumes. As intrigued as I was I never tried to tag along because I felt my hair was too short, my boobs were too small and frankly, at the time, I felt I was just “too punk rock” for that scene. I was content living vicariously through Bonnie.

When The Girls Next Door first aired it became my guilty pleasure. At the time I lived in a ground level apartment and we had a TV that projected onto a giant wall in our living room. There was a huge window that looked onto the street as well as one behind the couch that faced my neighbors. I would always make sure my blinds and curtains were closed so no one could see what I was watching.

When Holly came into the picture on The Girls Next Door I became an instant fan. I felt like I could really relate to her in some strange way. I was thrilled when Down The Rabbit Hole came out and couldn’t wait to get my hands on it. I actually listened to the audio version which is read by Holly herself. It was a fascinating look into what life was really like behind the mansion doors. It starts out with Holly describing attending her first Playboy party and the excitement she felt as the bus drove her up the long driveway. She described it exactly as my cousin did 15 years ago.

If you are a Holly Madison fan or just curious about the life of a former “girlfriend” I would highly recommend this book. Along with revealing the mystery behind the gates its a story of strength, courage and fight.


Down the Rabbit Hole: Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny

The shocking, never-before-told story of the bizarre world inside the legendary Playboy Mansion—and, finally, the secret truth about the man who holds the key—from one of the few people who truly knows: Hef’s former #1 girlfriend and star of The Girls Next Door

A spontaneous decision at age twenty-one transformed small-town Oregon girl Holly Sue Cullen into Holly Madison, Hugh Hefner’s #1 girlfriend. But like Alice’s journey into Wonderland, after Holly plunged down the rabbit hole, what seemed like a fairytale life inside the Playboy Mansion—including A-list celebrity parties and her own #1-rated television show for four years—quickly devolved into an oppressive routine of strict rules, manipulation, and battles with ambitious, backstabbing bunnies. Life inside the notorious Mansion wasn’t a dream at all—and quickly became her nightmare. After losing her identity, her sense of self-worth, and her hope for the future, Holly found herself sitting alone in a bathtub contemplating suicide.

But instead of ending her life, Holly chose to take charge of it.

In this shockingly candid and surprisingly moving memoir, this thoughtful and introspective woman opens up about life inside the Mansion, the drugs, the sex, the abuse, the infamous parties, and her real behind-the-scenes life with Bridget, Kendra, and, of course, Mr. Playboy himself.

With great courage, Holly shares the details of her subsequent troubled relationship, landing her own successful television series, and the hard work of healing, including her turn on Dancing with the Stars. A cautionary tale and a celebration of personal empowerment, Down the Rabbit Hole reminds us of the importance of fighting for our dreams—and finding the life we deserve.


Top 8 Emmy’s Looks

Lady Gaga Actress, American Horror Story: Hotel wearing a Brandon Maxwell dress. Photo: Steve Granitz/WireImage

Taraji P. Henson Nominee, Lead Actress in a Drama for Empire
Wearing Alexander Wang custom dress; Neil Lane jewelry.
Photo: Jason Merritt/Getty Images

Jamie Alexander Presenter in Armani Prive gown; Baccarat jewelry.
Photo: Alberto E. Rodriguez/Getty Images for TNT LA

Joanne Froggatt Nominee, Supporting Actress in a Drama Series for Downton Abbey wearing J. Mendel pink and black trompe l’oeil gown with draped bodice; Kwiat jewelry; Edie Parker clutch; Jimmy Choo shoes. Photo: John Shearer/WireImage

Lena Heady Nominee, Supporting Actress in a Drama Series for Game of Thrones wearing Zuhair Murad garnet wrap front halter gown with plunging neckline; Harry Kotlar jewelry. Photo: Mark Davis/Getty Images

Julianne Hough Judge, Dancing With The Stars wearing Marchesa black bugle beaded Chantilly lace and tulle corset gown with feather motif embroidery; Jimmy Choo clutch and sandals. Photo: Jason Merritt/Getty Images

Zoe Kazan Nominee, Supporting Actress in a Limited Series or Movie for Olive Kitteridge wearing Miu Miu dress. Photo: John Shearer/WireImage

Viola Davis in Carmen Marc Valvo. Bravo! What a beautiful speech!


My Top 10 Looks From The VMA’s 2015

Last night I only caught bits and pieces of the VMA’s on TV’s in a noisy sports bar in the Marriott. I really only cared about the clothes though anyway right? From what I have read today I think maybe I was better off having only seen and not heard. What did you think? Let me know if I missed anything. Was it actually worth watching? Here were my top 10 favorite looks of the night! Who were yours?

T Swift was hands down my best dressed of the night! Absolute perfection! I went nuts over her 2 piece outfit by Ashish! I would totally rock that. It had a Gwen Stefani vibe and I could see it being awesome in different colors too.

What couple could pull off all this denim? Only Pharrell Williams and his lovely lady Helen Lasichanh. How cute are they?

I loved this Stella McCartney jumpsuit on Hailee Steinfeld. Absolute perfection!

I love this dress and thought Britney Spears looked fantastic!. Her boobs looked a bit squished and about to burst out but hey…it was the best I have seen her look in a long time!

This dress looks like it was from the same family as Britney’s. Liquid gold. It fit Nicki Minaj perfectly and looked like it had been poured on her.  I thought she looked fabulous!

The design of this dress on FKA Twigs was architectural and interesting. I thought she looked fab!

This look on Ciara was just hot! What you should wear to the VMA’s! I loved the fringe!

Lily Aldridge rocked the deep V. This dress hugged her body perfectly!

Vanessa Hudgens looked like a goddess in this flowy pastel dress. Love, love, love!

I loved everything about this look on Jussie Smollett from the hat to the shoes and everything in-between. He looks comfortable and stylish!


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I absolutely love Baddie Winkle and am always thrilled to see her fashion posts on Instagram. You can see her story here.

All photos courtesy of Getty Images


Birchbox Pop Up at The Grove

I have been a huge fan of Birchbox for years (you can see my post from 2012 about it here) so I was thrilled to be invited to preview the pop up shop going on at The Grove this weekend!

It was literally 94 degrees here at 10am! Can you tell that I’m melting?

There is Birchbox shopping and beauty treatments!

You can “build your own Birchbox” for men and women for $15! You get to pick 5 products for your box. So fun!

Heres what I chose…a box for me and a box for Wade!

Here are the deets:
The Grove, 189 The Grove Drive
SATURDAY, AUGUST 29, 11 A.M. – 7
SUNDAY, AUGUST 30, 12 P.M. – 6

Meet Mr. Kate for a book signing and free BeautyMarks with purchase,
Saturday 12 p.m. – 2 p.m.
Meet LA Lakers Point Guard D’Angelo Russell, Saturday 12 p.m. – 1 p.m.

Free women’s nail services from Enamel Diction
Free men’s hair trims from Baxter of California



Kevin From Work

Last week I had the pleasure of viewing the new ABC Family comedy Kevin From Work. It is edgy and hilarious and premiers tonight at 8/7c. I love the nod to John Cusak’s character in Say Anything in this banner!

My friend Stephanie was the perfect date because she LOVES TV and knows everything about the actors and director McG! (Don’t mind my wrinkled dress, I had just been sitting in a theater for an hour!)

The cast: Jordan Hinson, Paige Spara, Noah Reid, Punam Patel (who is from Vero Beach, Fl right next to my hometown Ft. Pierce!) and Matt Murray.

Afterwards there was a great Q&A with the cast. I recorded the audio on my phone but haven’t been able to access it. You will just have to watch the show tonight!


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